Parenting

My ego is a complicated beast. It is in me to help me, but unwittingly, at times, it hurts me. My ego is the light wolf and the dark Wolf. As you can read more about in my post titled "I Am The Wolf." But I wanted to go into more details about that in this post. My ego gives me the confidence to do hard things and to get outside my comfort zone. It makes me believe that I can overcome obstacles and yet at the same time it is the obstacle. "The impediment to action adva

As my depression has progresses, I notice that I say 'no' to my children more and more often. When we go to stores, my kids ask me for things that they don't need and I find myself getting really frustrated. I hate saying 'no' to my kids so when they ask me for things that they don't need, that we can't afford, or that we just don't want to spend our money on I tell them 'no' and while this might be considered by some as "good parenting," it makes me feel like a crappy dad.

I feel like there could/should be a book about Parenting Through Depression...especially for Father's. It's probably the hardest, and the worst, part about living with Major Depressive Disorder. Not having the patience for your own children is a terrible feeling. There are times when I find myself screaming and even swearing at my children and while I'm right in the middle of it I have this out-of-body experience where I see myself screaming at my kids all the while I'm as